September 18, 2009

I'm Freakin Out

Firsts.I could go mental trying to figure out how to get through it without losing sleep, but there you go, I am nervous already!  I imagine with my nerves will possibly come worry.  I worry that when the start pistol goes off, that there will be these invisible concrete shoes that I will wear for 21 km.  Like in your dreams when you are trying to run somewhere, but can't run at normal speed, you are like molasses asses.  Or trying to talk, but the words don't come out.  I just hope I can be relaxed enough to be present in my body, feeling free to just run out of pleasure.  I have a certain performance I would like out of the experience, but to enjoy it and take on the challenge with joy, that is another thing.  This is voluntary after all!  We shall see.
I am contemplating tapering, it is a foreign and scary thing.  More to come on that too.  I am happy to say that my friend Jeremy is looking like he is good to go, it was a bit iffy whether his Achilles was going to take him out of the race.  Good journey on that one, bro!

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